Just Smile
I see you.
You see me.
In the world of things that I could never know,
I know we are all I can ever be.
The greatest heights I can reach,
The lowest depths you can reach,
They are what I let make me,
I am no more than these simple things.
Yet I’m supposed to kill you,
Reject you outright,
Blow these opportunities away,
Through the lasting effect of a knife.
I wonder if you wonder,
Dream the same dreams,
Suffer more than me…
That’s right…
You are my suffering.
Again and again,
The cuts along my skin,
Worries in my head,
Loneliness that defines my own hatred.
Why should I not kill you?
That’s what you wonder isn’t it?
Your body aflame,
Heart beating against the heat.
You are alive,
And you can not smile.
I am alive,
And I’ve lost the desire to smile.
I do not want half of me,
I do not want all of me,
I hate both of us more than anything.
But if I have to be what I see,
Whenever I walk past any hateful,
Reflective thing,
Do not let one definition define me.
Let me suffer,
Let me wish for better,
Let me have my moments,
Where I ignore all the pain,
And just smile.